+ i'm still here with you
+ you're hanging on
- we really can't see eachother
+ but we'll never move on
+ what we have is GOLDEN
- i only wish they would see
+ how jealous they really are
+ because this is something they could never be...
-ricky
learning how to breathe all over again is really hard/pleasant thing to do. i guess when all this is said and done, we'll be better people. so long and take care.
if you think this is about you, it's not.
r
Its funny howmuch you run and you're out of town. Your stories have gotten so much better than you ever were. I'm sick of the phonecalls asking me about the shit you say. You are a flash in the coffin. The hits feel like the joke, watching your teeth fall out is the punchline. Those that live in glasshearts shouldn't throw stones (and I bet you never thought I knew). I'm not your friend anymore.
If you think this is about you. It is.
this weekend LSSRS hit up South Padre Island. it was great with the exception of one person... VENIS PENIS. i can't stand her sometimes and this weekend was one of those times... she's always like "WAH WAH WAH!! MY VAGINA HURTS!!" i swear i wish she would die. ha i'm jk. she just get's on my fucking nerves if she doesn't go her way. oh well... we'll live. next trip though... JUST GUYS
that will be the last time i will wait for your call. from now on, this shit is on my terms. i will break your heart.
-ricky
the stars have been joking with me and i'm not in on it. sometimes i feel left out even though i'm not and others, i feel as if i would die without all the attention. all this loss of sleep over you has got me thinking about right now. sometimes i wish i could just leave this town and go somewhere and meet new people to find out what they have to say about this world. i'm sure it's the same words, said differently. i have come to find out one thing this past week... sleepcureseverything.
r
well we talked this morning and let me tell you, it was weird. said hello, talked, got mad, got sad, then apologized. i have no idea what that was about and we'll probably forget about it before you can say what happend but, we've been doing that alot lately. i dont know what's gonna happen. anywhoo, spring break has been pretty cool thus far. haven't gone to the beach or hit up anything fun since saturday. just work. thinking about you has become my new favorite hobbie. i've been thinking alot and i'm gonna stop second guessing anything and go with the flow. seems easier and better that way. bottom line... I Love You. i can't wait to kiss you on the mouth.
anightwithoutyouisanightinhell
-rick a.k.a. hot hot sex
well work has been really fun as of late. i never thought i would be saying that but i've actually been looking foward to go to work. i can't wait to talk to you tonight, i have lots to say. let's take pictures... :)
i remember waiting for you to come
remember waiting for yo to call
remember waiting here to find nothing at all..
i went to go visit my mother today in the hospital. her sergury went rather well. i'm glad she made it out ok. she'll be home saturday and i'm so glad for that. her being gone hasn't been the same. there's no one here to bitch at me or tell me to wash dishes... heh. you'd think that's a good thing but i have gotten used to it and it's wierd not having her here... thanks for the prayers, means alot.
right now everyone except you is calling. imissyou
ok so i talked to her this morning and well, i miss the hell out of her. "i still have that shooting feeling like he's right here next to me." <---this was in her info. heh. i love this kid.
you are the only thing on my mind. i cant wait to go to sleep tonight to dream of you. @)--^---(
-ricky
i think i understand her but im not sure- i'm never sure of that. you know, you can never truly be sure someone is truthfull with you, ever. with anyone. its this curse that people can carry and they've been lying so long they don't remember what it means to tell the truth anymore. so you can either stop trying to second guess them and believe that they care. or you can do what i've been doing. I'm quitting that- my brain/heart/body hurts from it and i can't do it anymore. if she breaks my heart it will be by something real. that i see. i'm not going to say "what if" ever again. its killing me.
ps. i wrote a song about what happened to me these past few days. i may post it. who cares
-ricky
its always too late when you find the right direction. maybe nobody is waiting for me to get it right. anywhoo, i saw her 2 nights ago, and let me just say that it was nothing short of beautiful. everything went perfect. you got me smiling.
all poets are kids who just never made it...
-rick
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as of the past 3 days, i know of 3 people who have tried to kill themselves. it's so depressing to hear this because i never would have thought they would attempt to do this or even think about it. these suicide attempts are all due to relationships. i just don't get it, why would you kill yourself over a dumbass? it's not worth it at all and in the end, they get the best of you. these people need to seriously come back to reality, build a bridge, and get over it. suicide will never be an answer to whatever question they have. as most of you know i really don't drink or do anything of that manner. well when i was at work yesterday, they asked how much i could handle. i replied to them that i really don't care for drinking. they had jokes. i just don't see the point, i dont know why people do it. i could care less for it. i hate people who say they can't be themselves without alcohol or even go out unless it's involved. they need to go home and listen to the whole Minor Threat discography and get cleansed. fuck them. I'm EDGE.
-rick
last night i went to check out some local bands and friends of mine. Winchester rocked the mic and Jr. High Jinx were just awsome as usual. i wish i still had my band. i'm gonna miss those days. this is a crappy post. i'll update it later
-rick's got the magic stick
sometimes when you think of someone special in your life you try not to think negative. lastnight we found out that we expect the worst in everything just to not get disappointed... :) as corny as it sounds, that means alot to me. and if YOU weren't so tired, i would have stayed on the phone longer with you. i'm so just kidding. ok so i woke up late today and missed all of my classes. that blows becase now when i do go back, i'm gonna have a shit load of homework. oh well, i guess i'll write something in here later because i know this sucks. heh. later skaters
-rick
where do i start? i have so much to say. if you say you're gonna be there, be there. if you say you're gonna hold me, hold me tight. if you say you'll never let me fall to the ground, then catch me. i have so many thoughts of anger, fustration going through my head. you fucked up so bad this weekend and i don't know if i can find it in my heart to trust you anymore. i want to go somewhere, anywhere for that matter. it's so confusing and you probably don't know what i'm talking about but that's how i like it. start to finish, and left with a clue and a question. gun to my head with my hand over my heart, i might turn it right around and point it straight to you. let me know what side of the barrel you should be on. ahh!! anywhoo, on a good note, Sam just called me and he asked me if i wanted to go to Cancun with him this summer. OH FUCK YEAH!! haha. that was a dumbass question, so yeah, i'm booked. well till tomorrow stellas and stellos.
tell me how it really goes and i swear i'll walk out the room with a smile on my face and a knife in my back pocket. you're my favorite liar.
-ricky
take this to your grave and i'll take it to mine
