times a changing
So...ok i was thinking...I try to keep an open mind and take into consideration the thought of others. It kind of makes me feel insecure because if i have an open mind, that means someone else has a closed mind and at times irrational. Lately... i know ive contradicted myself because in the past i said... pfff girl pants??? I wear my pants. call it a trend, fashion, i call it kinda cool looking haha.As of late there are a few who are dearly important to me who say i have changed and become a rude and incosiderate asshole. I may fail to see this, but that doesnt mean everyone else does. Everyone has their own lense of point, and i have to consider that and respect it. I dont have to agree with it, no, i dont, but have to wonder why and where it came from.THe truth is everyone changes, some moreso than others. Everyone i know who is my friend has changed... and i know a lot. Some grew as i expected, others... grew... well lets just say i saw everything pretty much comming. People gradually push toward where they want to go or who they want to be... others dont and become something they hate.ME? Yes i have to say I am happy with who i am. I dont think im rude or inconsiderate, and if you think me so... well tell me how i've offended you. I've tried hard to incoorporate the feelings of others and im sad to say i make compromises in my character, but i find out that this is what you pay for an open mind. There adaptation and then there is conformity. I still see that I am Ricky, and that there is a difference between me and your cookie cutter not so individual. I wish people could understand that change is constant, and even if people change i accept that, and to me it is ok. People who i am or was closest too have probably changed the most, and I do my best to accept their personalities for who they are because I love them. THere is a point where acceptance becomes something i cant do because of the uncomfortable aura that draws me away... but as long as you dont harm me, i see no reason to take action. I try to justify my actions with ... well an eye for an eye, but i guess that would make us all blind. We all try too hard to protect our pride, and I'm writing this so anyone who actually cares who i am can understand me. This or livejournal is a very fake place, but it can also be amazing when you talk to the right people. I havent always been so accepting in the past and recently im trying to consider everyones views and styles.Be yourself, because that is the best person you can be.thank you for listening.
-ricky
